Sun Jul 31, 2011 6:33 pm by Alkor Centaris
*Alkor's hair stood on end as the cold feeling gripped him again, as it had so long ago. It hadn't been the first time, he recalled, when Viscarious drew blood from his flesh, digging the dagger deep into his arms, painting a drawing in lacerations down the length of his arms, his back, his legs...
The former Jen'jidai almost moaned from the very thought of the pain that echoed through time as it pressed through his being, welling up beneath those sullied bandages and painting them in a new coat of his blood. He could feel the shiver throughout his body as his eyes glinted their striking violet and his knees seemed to shiver for a moment, and a spike of some feeling shot through him, though one he admitted he could not recall.
"Reaper's Garb," Viscarious had called the bandages. Along with the one time Jedi's robe, they held back the monster that the Jen'jidai had pulled out, kicking and screaming, from within Alkor. The black bags beneath his eyes seemed to get darker as he slouched forward and seemed to gag. The wretched, frigid wind kicked up the tattered threads as whatever power it was Ishmael called upon moved over them, and the stench of blood filled the air. Alkor remembered the feeling, consummate darkness overtaking his entire being, throwing him into a state of abject sorrow, the anguish of remembering all his sins, and the horror of bringing them to life. By his own hand.
Unraveling quite like his mind- or at least, how his mind felt to be- Alkor's bandages seemed to slough off like melted flesh from Alkor's trembling form, and his eyes widened as he heaved, and blood black as night began to flow freely from his open mouth, and tears formed at the edges of his eyes as he fought the thing that Ishmael had accidentally unleashed. A hand shot up to his forehead, and Alkor's left eye twitched violently one time before he swallowed back the torrent of blood and brought his sleeve across his face to smear the blood, more than to clean it away.*
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Its not that he has power over me, its something I did long, long ago now, to ensure that the evils of my past wouldn't rule me for the rest of my life. This ancient power that Viscarious branded into my flesh and tainted my blood with turned me into little more than a slave to the Jen'jidai. I readily accepted that for so long that now I look back and curse what a fool I was.
The power Ishmael has called forth has awakened the sleeping, titanic presence that I worked with my one time master to lock away, nearly twelve years ago now. I wished for a very long time never to remember, til the day I realized that it was a curse I could never forget. I was born a demon, I have lived a demon, and even now I am reminded, I will die a demon.
And all for want of my freedom.
My cold eyes have sprung to life with nothing but agony and hatred for this man, who I would have allowed to live. Moments ago, he could have walked away with his life, but he's gone and hefted the axe above his own head. I never fancied killing, and I never found any joy in it. I just got to knowing who I was as the blood of my victims washed away my delusions. Now all I see is Ishmael, a man who at one time garnered my respect. What a fool he truly has revealed himself to be.
I tried to run from my past, but the past will never allow me the luxury of escapism, fleeting or eternal. I can't escape the past, I can't kill the past, and the demon is stirring now. I want to yell for them to run, but the blood in my throat has all but erased my ability to speak. It will return after a few moments, perhaps, but by then, the desire to scatter them will be all gone.
The black blood seeps through the bandages now, and falls like the tattered fabric from my arms and back, and I imagine I look rather manic, despite those tendrils of darkness Ishmael has given rise to. He'd call forth the darkness from before the dawn of time to attack me without even knowing how it might backfire. Without even stopping to consider why I've worn these bandages all this time.
It's my jail cell. They're the bars, just as much as my flesh is. A tomb, I recall Viscarious calling me, the demon within me dead before its time simply because it was trapped within. But it's never been a demon, not a second consciousness, not a creature of the dark- its always been me. I can feel your trivial emotions now more than ever, Ishmael, and its not amusing me. Those things you're conjuring up aren't any more real than this darkness- fleeting and useless.
And it's collapsing on me like a twi'lek far too eager to smother me with her worthless frame.
I raise a hand deftly as the darkness surrounds me completely, and to everyone else, I've disappeared within it. It must seem hopeless, and to Ishmael, I might surely seem dead. Let him swallow me whole, so that I might show him just what I think of darkness.
My bandages litter the ground now, as if I'd been a wretched gift unwrapped and delivered to his woeful attack. My eyes have closed and I wear the soft smile of release. It's only a moment more, now...
Come on, Ishmael, I hear myself speak the words, just loud enough for him to hear, Don't you mean to kill me?