Chapter IV*Raan was known to blame himself for a lot of things, and most of the time he was wrong for doing so. Yet, there was one incident that he would forever blame on himself with pure conviction that he could have avoided it if only he had trusted his animal-like instincts. Perhaps he would have been a different person then . . .*This was a nightmare— it must have been. Never before had Raan be so certain that he was dreaming, but this time he knew it to be a fact. So why, then, did this nightmare feel real? He was standing on the sidelines, observing as a blood-covered Elikapeka cried over Noelani's corpse, begging for help— anything would do. Raan tried to call out to her, but she couldn't hear him. He tried to move, but something was hindering all his motor abilities. He called onto the Force— but even that failed him. He could only watch as Noelani continued to bleed, and Elikapeka cry. He could hear asking where he was, at some point she even screamed, begging him to revive Noelani . . . but he couldn't move.
Raan could feel his own tears rolling down— knowing that it was a dream was NOT enough. He had to do something about it— in no dimension would he ever stand to watch Noey die. He tried to look around, locate where they were, but their surroundings were hazy and unclear. There were a few more corpses lying around Elika and Noelani— and when he looked at his own hands, they were covered in blood too.
Suddenly, Elikapeka was all too aware of Raan's presence. She stopped her crying and got on her feet, turning around to look into Raan's eyes. There was a hatred of the kind he had never seen before in those eyes, and Raan found himself fearing that gaze more than anything else. You . . .you knew about this! You could have stopped it! He couldn't hear her voice, but he could read her lips, and that took none of the judgement out of her words. You never should have left us, but now because of your actions . . .
Raan shook his head. He wanted to take a step back or even run away. Anything to avoid what he was seeing. He tried to will the Force to work, but that didn't work. His breathing was heavy, and his heart threatened to burst out of his chest, but he still could not move. Nonetheless, none of that torment was as piercing as Elika's gaze, her hatred....and even worse, what she was about to say next. He knew what she wanted to say, but he did not want to hear it. He had to avoid it at all costs. N-no Peka! D-don't say it! DO NOT SAY IT!!
Elika was so close now that he could see every detail of her, they were less than an inch apart and despite being six-and-three in height, he felt so much smaller than her just by looking into those eyes. He was trembling. He wanted to run away from her. Raan could not remember a time when he had been this scared— well, there was the time when his parents were massacred, but this fear was different. This was fear borne from guilt. Elikapeka brought her blood covered hand to his face, smearing the blood on Raan's face without so much as blinking or looking away. Her blood is on your hands! She is . . .NOELANI IS DEAD BECAUSE OF YOU!!!
That stilled him completely— No, it destroyed him. He no longer wanted to live. Noelani was . . .dead? No. He would destroy the world. He would!
Hearing those words alone caused him to snap, and with maniacal rage overtaking him, Raan broke through whatever seal it was that had hindered his movement. Elika continued to echo her words, blaming him, and even then he paid no attention to her. Shimmers of electricity began to appear around him, followed by instant lightning as the world went completely blank. He would destroy the worl—
Raan— Please come back to me . . .
. . . .It may have been faint, but he heard it. It was Noelani! She was calling him from somewhere . . . and he knew that he had to follow her voice to get out of this nightmare, somehow. Looking back to where Elikapeka stood (she too, was somewhat puzzled) he said, You were wrong. Noey is alive and well. Can you hear her? You're nothing but a nightmare.
Looking up, he somehow managed to levitate towards the light that had appeared in his world, but even as he left the nightmare, Elika's voice followed him. Beware . . . you are the harbinger of death. I'm not a nightmare . . . I am the reality you fail to acknowledge.
...And then she was gone, and with her, the entire nightmare.
When he woke up again, it was to find Noelani leaning on him, on the verge of tears as she tried to shake him in an attempt to wake him up. Without warning, he sat up and pulled her into a fierce hug, causing a sudden gasp to escape her lips, but even then he didn't let her go.
Noelani had known that Raan would be fine from the moment the furniture around them stopped shaking, yet she hadn't expected the hug so suddenly. In her world, she had envisioned Raan opening his eyes ever so slowly— as any normal person would when returning from deep slumber. But nonetheless, she returned the hug just as fiercely, glad to have Raan back although she didn't quite understand what had just happened, nor did she know how to make sure it didn't occur again.
"Just . . . what happened to you on that mission, Raan? Talk to me, please."It wasn't uncommon for Noelani to call him by name, but it was very rare to hear a concerned tone from her. Noey was old school— with the exception of her lover, she never openly showed concern or worry to anyone else. Yet here she was, displaying an emotion that completely moved the red-head male.
She thinks my mission is the cause of all this? Thought Raan, slowly regaining his breath as he processed whether or not he should inform her of his nightmare.
"Noey, I am deeply honored that you worry for me but please know that my mission has nothing to do with what just happened." Loosening his grip on her, he continued,
"It just so happens that I was having a nightmare. That is all. And if at all possible, I would appreciate it if you didn't tell the others about my little . . ."Noelani began to chuckle. So even if it was her, Raan wouldn't open up, eh? She wasn't entirely surprised. It had been a year, so maybe a lot had changed about him, and she knew that he just didn't want to worry her. She wasn't sure whether to be pleased or disappointed in the lack of trust he exhibited.
"Don't worry, Lordling, your secret is safe with me." She patted him gently before sitting back.
"But . . . I wish you wouldn't try to act all tough around me. It's alright to show weakness, Raan." She brought her hands to his cheeks.
"You're only seventeen. Please don't grow too fast. You'll be an adult in your own time— until then, live a happy life, enjoy whatever it is that teenagers enjoy, heck, get a girlfriend, or boyfriend, whichever way you swi—""Noey! First of all, I am Jedi. Second, was I to take an interest in romance, you can rest assured that I would only go for girls, thank you very much." He said, pouting that she would even dare make jokes like those at a time like this.
"Hrmph! How could you—""Alright, alright. I am sorry." She laughed, punching him on the shoulder.
"Gosh, can't you learn how to take a joke? See what I mean? You shouldn't be so serious. There's so much more to life than taking everything to heart." Her expression turned serious again.
"All I'm trying to say, is that I'm here if you ever wish to open up or talk about anything . . . and I'll be around for a long time. Also, just because you've gotten so big doesn't mean you should treat me like a weak little girl and hide things from me. If you think that I'll worry so much and therefore avoid telling me things....well, let me just say that you're wrong, alright? I'm older and stronger than you, kid, and if you don't believe me, we can take this outside anytime and I'll—"
"Fine, fine! Sheesh, Noey, no need to go on and on! I get it." He raised his arms in surrender.
"I'm sorry! I'll tell you right now. Anything to stop you from giving me the speech!"Laughing genuinely, Noelani sat back and devoted all her attention to Raan.
"Out with it, then. I've got plenty more where that came from." A smile.
Heavens, she's so beautiful and completely unaware of it. Thought Raan, before deciding that he would indulge in optical nutrition another time.
"I had a nightmare about you..." He said, and told her everything he could remember from it. Not missing a single detail, and when he was done,
"I know this may sound silly but . . . for the next month or so, please make sure I'm with you whenever you and Peka head out." His eyes, were once again closed, a polite smile on his face as he said,
"Please, alright?" But even then, Noelani could tell that he was begging for her to say yes despite the fact that he was basing it all on a dream.
Given any other circumstance, Noey would have laughed, but the look she received from Raan— well, it wasn't exactly a look since the brat was doing that thing he sometimes did of closing his eyes, didn't he think he looked cool doing it or something—she couldn't bring herself to make light of the situation.
"Thank you for sharing." She meant it,
"But, let me ask you something . . . do you possess The Sight?" When Raan didn't comprehend what she meant, Noelani explained.
"Perhaps the Jedi have a different name for this ability, but my people believe that the Moon Goddess blesses a chosen few with a ability to see into the future, be it in the form of dreams or other methods."
"Precognition." Raan said, understanding the definition.
"Or Visions, I believe. But to answer your question, I don't think I do. I'm told that my elder sister possessed such an ability but . . . I'm different. My abilities, even amongst Force Sensitives, are quite rare— sorry, I'm going off topic."Noey shook her head,
"It's alright. You seem almost certain that you don't possess this ability then. In which case I would say to disregard the nightmare as that. I cannot see you bringing about death, anyway. I'm way too strong to die at your hands."This made Raan laugh. Noey was no doubt trying to cheer him up, and it was working like a charm.
"But, in the event that you might have awakened this ability, I will tell you now that the one way to prove it wrong is to not be intimidated by it. My Eli would never say or do the things you just dreamed of. Blood smearing and scary words like those? Can you even picture her glaring at all."Raan paused, trying to picture the innocent Elika glaring or even saying anything extremely dark and deep. The thought alone was ridiculous— and Noey must have realized Raan's conclusion since the two burst out laughing immediately.
"You see?! Exactly. Also," She looked into the teenager's eyes,
"Do you think that visions would stop me from living my life? Are they not there to help me stay alive to begin with?" When she noticed the worry returning to Raan's green eyes, she slapped him ever so gently on the cheek.
"Listen, the Moon Goddess has a purpose for each and every one of us. I know you don't believe in her but I do. All this to say that when my time comes, there will be nothing you or the Force can do. It will be my time. So." Noelani jumped into Raan's lap, giggling when the boy's cheeks turned red.
"Tell those visions to go haunt someone else, Little Lordling!"
"B-but..." Raan looked away, noting that he must have opened his eyes at some point.
"You didn't promise!""Oh for crying out l—" Noelani sighed, Raan was really worried and while she didn't want to admit it, there was no way she could say no to him when he had that face about him. Not only that but the little episode a few minutes ago had pretty much shaken her. Right now she was so glad to have him back that she couldn't exactly refuse anything he asked of her.
"Fine. I promise! But just for the month, alright?! I know you miss me too much but really, has it come down to you chaperoning me now?!"He wanted to say thanks, but he didn't trust his ability to speak at the moment since his throat felt rather clogged at the moment and no amount of throat-clearing would help. So instead, he leaned close and kissed her on the cheek, closing his eyes again and gracing her with his boyish smile.
"Sheesh, what am I going to do with you?!" Noelani was shaking her head.
"Back for only a few hours but you're already causing upheavals. What a handful, you are . . .""And you seem to have gained a little weight since I last saw you, Noey." He moved his thighs a little to emphasize his point.
"What have you been eat—" That gained him another slap.
Sighing, Noey said,
"There are things you just don't say to a woman, Raan. First, you tell her she's beautiful all the time, and second, no matter how blotted up she looks, you tell her she's as thin as a stick. Got it?"Raan nodded wisely as if to say,
I see."Now then, one secret deserves another." Noelani produced a small cube in one hand, and before Raan could ask where it had come from, opened it to reveal a most beautiful of
rings.
Raan's eyes widened . . .
"Well, what do you think?" Asked Noelani, a trace of nervousness in her voice.
"I know it isn't the best but—""Noey." Raan looked at her,
"That is the most amazing thing I've ever seen . . . but I must decline.""W-what?"
"I'm not emotionally prepared to get married to you, so I'm afraid I'll be turning down your proposal—""Why you arrogant little . . ." Taking care to hide the box again, Noelani spent the next five minutes torturing Raan.
"Darn right you're ten years too early to get married but even if the ring had been meant for you, how dare YOU turn ME down! Me! Oh the nerve!"
It took a while for the torture to stop, but when it finally did, the two had completely forgotten about the nightmare and were now focused on the more important matter— the proposal.
"So . . . when are you going to ask her?" Raan asked, smiling sweetly and wrapping his arms around Noey. "
If you say now then I'm going to drown you in the closest lake, lady. You can take that as a promise!"
"Oh no, no no no. Never. I'll be doing it tomorrow under the pretext of . . ." She looked apologetically at Raan.
"Celebrating your birthday. I know you're good at knowing when the moment is right to do things— so I'll be counting on you to act your part so she suspects nothing at all."Raan shook his head, feigning disappointment.
"And as usual, you'll be using me to do all the dirty work. Why don't you just do us all a favor and let me propose to Peka instead, hmm? Let's face it, I would make her happier. After all, I've got the one part she might—""Shut up." She sealed his lips.
"That part is NOT necessary! Believe me." She grinned evilly.
"But since we're on the subject, can I ask how it is that you would know? Hmm? Last I checked, you were—""MAKING US ALL WAIT FOR THE FOOD TO GET COLD!" It was Maleko.
"Now if you two are done wrestling, please join the rest of us normal folks for breakfast before my wife throws a tantrum."
"Please, Mal, everyone knows that you're the only one who throws tantrums.""What she said, Old Man H.""WHATEVER! Just hurry up please." Rolling his eyes, the Patriarch Hekekia left the living room to head back to the kitchen.
Laughing, the two got on their feet and followed shortly. As they did so, Noelani looked up at Raan and mouthed a thank you. Raan pointed at himself and shook his head, then he pointed at her and nodded.
Noelani had always brought out the best in Raan. She had never known just how much she meant to him, but the truth of the matter was, she had been his Light . . . just as Elikapeka was hers.