Thu Feb 09, 2012 11:38 pm by Morgan Calmcacil
*Morgan held onto Kory, tears falling from her eyes but otherwise silent. She blinked now and again, smiling briefly when Kory said that she loved Morgan too. And when she kissed the side of her head, Morgan only closed her eyes, before sliding downward enough to turn her head and kiss Kory on the cheek. She then nuzzled against her, wanting to hold onto her forever, even though she knew that she would eventually have to let her go.
And when the moment came, when Kory pulled herself away from Morgan, Morgan desperately, like an infant, kept her arms outstretched, reaching for and grabbing at her, taking a step forward with a pleading, sorrowful expression. Her mouth was open, as though to cry or whine or protest, but it closed with nary a whimper, her arms falling to her sides, and she watched as Kory silently boarded her ship, not looking back.
The repulsors of the ship rushed past her, rippling through her hair and clothing. But she didn't react, other than take a step back. Her eyes were glued to the ship, as it lifted off the hangar floor, angled towards the exit, and began to depart. The rush of air died down and her hair fell against her back once more, slightly ruffled. And Morgan stood there, simply watching as the ship reached the hangar's exit.
And then she ran. Ran with all the speed her little legs could carry her towards the hangar's large entrance, with no regard for the other people or objects in the hangar. She tripped over a toolbox, but kept her footing and continued to run. She didn't stop until she was finally outside, past the hangar's opening, with the open sky above her. She stopped, out of breath, but remaining upright as she breathed deeply, staring up into the sky.
She located Kory's ship. Watched it speed away towards the heavens. Watched as it slowly became a small dot and then vanished from her vision. And with that, Morgan finally backed against the wall of the base behind her, then slid down to the ground, wrapping her arms around her knees, burying her face within them, and began to cry anew.
Morgan had just compared Kory to a mother. A preposterous notion; Felucia was her mother! And yet, Morgan had only spent limited time with the form of the world that could actually hold and carry and speak to her, Morgan being very well aware that such an instance could possibly never happen again. And then there was Kory, who certainly couldn't control the world and take her for a ride on the backs of rippers, but had been there for her physically and emotionally. Morgan couldn't even remember the last time a woman did that for her.
So maybe she was justified in the comparison. Maybe she was justified for sitting there against the wall of the base and crying at Kory's departure. She felt a touch, an almost hesitant one perhaps. One she recognized as the world's. Morgan sobbed again; this was a touch she dearly wished she could feel with her fingers. And yet she couldn't.*
<< Mommy... I wish you could hold me right now... >>
*Morgan didn't even look up, so she was genuinely surprised when, a moment later, she felt soft rain droplets. Morgan looked up to notice that sudden clouds had rolled in, ones that hadn't been there before. And that's when Morgan realized it: Her mother was crying too. And yet, Morgan felt as though she were being spoken to. As though the world had a message for her, her only means of comforting the girl:
~Tell your father to hold me for you, child.~
That didn't help. That wasn't what Morgan wanted! She wanted to scream "But I want you, Mommy!" But she knew that was not possible. Not at this moment. Morgan sobbed, looking up and nodding obediently; she couldn't disobey her mother. She climbed to her feet, then began to reenter the hangar. She stopped long enough to turn at the waist and stare at the cloud-filled sky again, before sighing and entering the base and to seek out her father.*
*The rains continued for but a few moments more, before slowly beginning to clear. They did not continue again, but, for the remainder of that day, the skies over the Jedi Base remained cloudy.*