Sun Jan 29, 2012 8:22 am by Rhea
*I turned to Lamia as I stormed from the bar, my face was fixed and rigid with fury, there were many reasons for my fury, there was the fact this stranger had interupted my peace and quiet, the one small amount of time I had found to be alone and to try and clear my own mind and gain some kind of closure, there was the fact that he was in the wrong place at the wrong time, he has smirked at me, on my average day, I would have let it go, but this was not an average day for me, far from it, the events of my life over the past year were creeping up on me, it was snowballing out of control and I was desperately trying to dig my heels in and gain back the control, there was a time when I would have fought Linc to the death that bart, before my training under the DJO, before Lahash and Hevn had taught me some control, I had changed, and then with everything that happened, I lost myself, but the fact that I ordered him arrested must count for something musn't it? it proved I was regaining some of that control back at last surely.
Had it been anyone else other than lamia who had questioned my motives or my actions, I would have fought, but this woman had known me for so long, she had always been there by my side through it all and had never once judged me, with Lamia, there were no bounderies, and she knew knew everything there was to know about mewe had no secrets, I trusted her like no other, she would always be able to reach me like no other could, we had our fights, that was natural, we would punch it out and then have a drink as if nothing had happened, it was our way, and this was why she was the one who could get away with speaking to me the way she was...*
I don't know, I really do not know, I do not know what I am doing, I have not had a moments space nor peace, nor rational thought for over a year, I just need to take him in until I do decide what to do okay? just give me this okay? I need time ...
*I bought my hands up to the back of my head and pulled down on my hair and arched my back and growled in pure frustration and anxiety before climbing aboard the speeder and waiting for Lamia to climb in before heading off to the Villa...*
Just give me some time to think.my head is far too busy to think properly, there are people I need to see and speak to, there is just far too much, I just need peace.
